To begin, something new,..I would like to dedicate this post to my Goddaughter Bianca. Looking at her has made me realize who I want to be as a man, a husband/father (potentially) or should God call me elsewhere, wherever that may be, consecrated life or even **gulp** priesthood. As well, three women placed themselves in my life and through example,.showed me true responsibilty and dedication,..Shout out to D.R.,.A.V. and C. B. who btw, looking forward to meeting you in Florida!
Okay,..so now its time to inform my readership and ask for prayers regarding a potential life changing decision. My life's journey has allowed me to experience all that life has to offer within the context of its secularized ideal and yes, I have partaken in every gluttunous activity, sensual delight and potentially dangerous adventure that one can have. The result? I have found it lacking,..flat, boring,.to summarize,..'mediocre.' Yes it's true, the world and its exesses bore me to the point where frankly I just don't understand any of it anymore. Last summer at this time, I went through a similar crisis and now, let's just say that the words of then Cardinal Ratzinger ring so true when speaking about the Christian path, the path that scrapes and bruises your feet. August 30th will be my last full time day as a trainer. The reasons will become clear as the gulf between my secualar 'self' and my 'spiritual' self is widening.
Living as a trainer, I initially thought that I could withstand the lifestyle,.how I was wrong. Have there been positives? Absolutely! There is no better feeling than helping a person lose weight or a little guy add some muscle. Day in day out speaking with people asking them why they first joined the gym, and every single one of them says the same thing 'health.' Well,.here is the dose of reality so sorely needed in this cosmetically altered dimension of silicon, cologen and steroids. The vast majority of these people are not in it for health,..they are in it to get laid! I'm not speaking about the career athelete looking to maintain and is already psychologically stable with good eating and exercise habits. I'm speaking about men and women with zero confidence coming in, 'saucing' themselves up (men) or taking a fat burner (women) to order to attract the opposite sex. Have I taken steroids? No, not because I didn't want to but because during high school we were regularly tested. Nevertheless,.the sad reality is that I too fell into this trap!! Not that I didn't have confidence,.but in order to promote my business, my facebook pics looked like a collection of me and my favorite object my mirror!!! I'll still use my talents as a trainer, but more from a Catholic perspective, Doug Barry comes to mind. See older posts regarding an idea for a Catholic men's bootcamp...here.
So that being said,..behold a new beginning! Gone will be the obnoxious 'look at me because I'm stronger than you pic' and in its place will be just me,..moi,..err whoever I am,..:-) Please pray for me as a decision, a major one is on the horizon,..but first I'll be off to Florida for some much needed rest and relaxation and of course DA BEACH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Woohooooo!
Blessed Pier Giorgio Frassati,........ora pro nobis