Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Self Examination Time,..(again,..)

To begin, something new,..I would like to dedicate this post to my Goddaughter Bianca.  Looking at her has made me realize who I want to be as a man, a husband/father (potentially) or should God call me elsewhere, wherever that may be, consecrated life or even **gulp** priesthood.  As well, three women placed themselves in my life and through example,.showed me true responsibilty and dedication,..Shout out to D.R.,.A.V.  and C. B.  who btw, looking forward to meeting you in Florida!

Okay,..so now its time to inform my readership and ask for prayers regarding a potential life changing decision.  My life's journey has allowed me to experience all that life has to offer within the context of its secularized ideal and yes, I have partaken in every gluttunous activity, sensual delight and potentially dangerous adventure that one can have.  The result?  I have found it lacking,..flat, boring,.to summarize,..'mediocre.'  Yes it's true, the world and its exesses bore me to the point where frankly I just don't understand any of it anymore.  Last summer at this time, I went through a similar crisis and now, let's just say that the words of then Cardinal Ratzinger ring so true when speaking about the Christian path, the path that scrapes and bruises your feet.  August 30th will be my last full time day as a trainer.  The reasons will become clear as the gulf between my secualar 'self' and my 'spiritual' self is widening.

Living as a trainer, I initially thought that I could withstand the lifestyle,.how I was wrong.  Have there been positives?  Absolutely!  There is no better feeling than helping a person lose weight or a little guy add some muscle.  Day in day out speaking with people asking them why they first joined the gym, and every single one of them says the same thing 'health.'  Well,.here is the dose of reality so sorely needed in this cosmetically altered dimension of silicon, cologen and steroids.  The vast majority of these people are not in it for health,..they are in it to get laid!  I'm not speaking about the career athelete looking to maintain and is already psychologically stable with good eating and exercise habits.  I'm speaking about men and women with zero confidence coming in, 'saucing' themselves up (men) or taking a fat burner (women) to order to attract the opposite sex.  Have I taken steroids?  No, not because I didn't want to but because during high school we were regularly tested.  Nevertheless,.the sad reality is that I too fell into this trap!!  Not that I didn't have confidence,.but in order to promote my business, my facebook pics looked like a collection of me and my favorite object my mirror!!! I'll still use my talents as a trainer, but more from a Catholic perspective, Doug Barry comes to mind.  See older posts regarding an idea for a Catholic men's bootcamp...here.

So that being said,..behold a new beginning!  Gone will be the obnoxious 'look at me because I'm stronger than you pic' and in its place will be just me,..moi,..err whoever I am,..:-)  Please pray for me as a decision, a major one is on the horizon,..but first I'll be off to Florida for some much needed rest and relaxation and of course DA BEACH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Woohooooo! 

Blessed Pier Giorgio Frassati,........ora pro nobis


Anonymous said...

Sometimes I want to punch you in the face so badly. Seriously, you're so full of yourself!
I can't wait to get myself to the gym today and get myself laid! *rolls eyes* By the way, not that it's any of your business but I for one have never been with anyone from the gym. My ex-boyfriend and I used to go to the same gym but then I changed to Prestige.... maybe it's time to change gyms again.
*shakes head & sighs*

Optimusmastro said...

Cathy I love your spirit!!!!!!!

Anonymous said...

Who's Cathy? Is that one of your girlfriends?

Optimusmastro said...

I made a statement that was terribly offensive. For that I offer my sincere apologies,..I will clarify with an addendum..

Suzanne said...

So what're you going to do?

I've used a trainer a couple of times. It was about health (I'm already married). But maybe you're in the wrong gym!

Anonymous said...

after reading your post, it got me thinking what is the message your trying to get a cross and do I comment .
is this a true
Self Examination are your looking to better yourself and let your readers know that its healthy to reflect whether its body or mind?
or is it to hit a nerve?
well I can say you did both there is a lot of truth in what your saying, I go to the gym for many reasons one of them maybe for attention when yes my confidence is low, another reason could be because I ate to much on the weekend, or that I have a history of diabetics in the family, what ever the reason maybe the important thing is that I go regardless. I can see why you hit a nerve some people may think your talking about them and yes your wording was a bit shallow ( but if they don't see there reflection in the mirror they should not take it personally) , not everyone can take a step back and see that you just stated some gym facts anyone that works in a gym can relate to your comment.
Are you a bit of an angry kid? yes!
should you be more diplomatic? maybe!
but there is always room for self improvement and this is what I think your really trying to tell your readers.
Now for my view from the bridge looking form the outside I see your struggle with who you want to be as a men. All I can say is wether it is a husband- father or priesthood that calls you, you will be great, passionate and a true success. and the people that love you will stand behind you and understand why you have made the chooses to leave the gym scene.
god bless you and I will pray for you.
Many people mistake our work for our vocation. Our vocation is the love of Jesus.
Mother Teresa

Optimusmastro said...

@Suzanne,..it isn't the gym,.it is my own weakness, ego and pride..

@Anonymous,..Thank-you much appreciated comments.

Christina Helena said...

I am really looking forward to seeing what God accomplishes through you.

Christina Helena said...

I am very much looking forward to witnessing what God accomplishes through you.

Patrick Button said...

Self reflection takes courage, public self reflection takes a lot!

I live in Florida and I really like it. Where in our great state will you be visiting?

Optimusmastro said...

@Christina,..be seeing you next week!

@Patrick,..Hollywood,.,the Quebec part of Florida! lol!!!