This is it! Today is the day that I will meet with the vocations director for the english side of the diocese in Montreal. The running away is over, the decision has been taken...Its now or never! This is one of those blog entries whereby I will need to solicit prayers. For the last year, I followed the advice of my parish priest (Btw,..an awesome holy priest! Word up Father Martineau!!!) and began studying as an external student. During this time,.I began looking into the Spirituality of St John Chysostom and began cleaning up the mess that was my interior life, less Charlie Sheen, more Francis of Assisi...(For this I give props to Father Steven Grunow, the number two man at 'Word on Fire' ministries.) Next up, through the advice of one of my best friends I began to pray the breviary,..Those psalms can act like spiritual supplements,.lke a faith based protein shake! (That piece of advice came from Father Greg Cizcek) Then came the ultimate gift the Holy Spirit gave me,..an awesome Spiritual director (Shout out to Fr Guy Guindon PSS,..) who comes from my world,.the gym! He has experience in Shotokan Karate, and also is good friends with George St Pierre. (St Pierre and I train at the same Jiu Jitsu School under the same coach Bruno Fernandes,..Gracie Barra.) So how much more evidence do I need?
Well,..there is of course my secular friends who still don't quite understand this path but support me nonetheless! My family, who thought I was called to priesthood as a kid,.(I probably was! I just ran in the other direction as fast as I could! 'Probably', because ultimately the seminary is the house of discernment) My facebook friends, awesome people who I met online, and have actually developed friendships with, real ones! (Generation Benedict!! This past summer I met Nick, Jason and Christina in Florida). The women in my life,.my ex girlfriend, who saw me transform, twist and turn, becoming more 'rigid' and disturbed at all liturgical nonsense and at life in general, yet stayed with me, through all of it before I finally fell into a depression. The bloggers out there, whom I eagerly await their posts,..we shared, vented and laughed at our silliness,..(Especially Button, Footer, Teresa and Heresy Hunter..)
To any guy out there being called,..you know the deal. You'll run, He'll let you experience all there is to experience. You'll never be fulfilled whatever job you do,.you'll try relationships, new hobbies,..etc. Ultimately God knows where you will be completely happy. It sucks,.it really does, especially when all you do is wonder why everyone around you is happy and you are not.
My path back to the Church,.started with the priest in the Diocesan bookroom, and now I meet with the friggin' vocations director! God has an awesome sense of humour,..He ordained a new priest last week, Fr Jason Piper, whose last quote to me was 'Like Nike,..Just do it!' I prefer 'Big' John McCarthy, 'Let's get it on!!!!!' My favorite though is St Faustina,...Jesus I trust in You!
St Jean Viannay,...........ora pro nobis!